Connecting the dots

又是一個挫折感很滿的早晨⋯⋯ 很難控制自己的情緒。 不想看到他，不想和他說話，不想聽到他的聲音⋯⋯ 突然看見天空有一隻鳥、兩隻鳥⋯⋯ 我就定睛在它們的身上，看著它們翱翔。 「是老鷹嗎？」 「它們是一對的嗎？」 「是在覓食嗎？」 慢慢的情緒好了些。

You matter. You matter because God loves you so much that He sent His only begotten son Jesus to die on the cross to redeem you. You matter because you have purpose. You matter because you can make a difference no matter how big or small.  You matter because the best is yet to come. You matter because you are willing to make a change even though is difficult. You matter because you are so loved. 

我已经忘了我是如何称呼你。。。阿婆？ 你离开我很久很久了。回想起来，好像我很少梦见你。 有一次真的梦见你了，我竟然很生气的大声对你说：“你为什么没有回来看我？” 你的回答是：“我现在回来了呀！” 阿婆，我好想你。 我现在终于明白为什么我喜欢逛超市了。。。因为我很怀念你问我物品的价钱·。 我想告诉你，我的身边有Alex，他很爱我。我相信我们会一直陪着对方一辈子。 阿婆，谢谢您的爱。谢谢您曾经陪伴我。我会好好的。 19/11/2024 回顾这篇，阿婆说她 “现在” 回来了。。。 仿佛是在对我说，活在 “现在” 吧。 阿婆，我没有生气你。我是生气妈咪为什么没有叫我去医院见你最后一面。 好多年已经过去了，我的生气指数有比较低了。 我依然没有放下，但是这个负担轻了。轻到我只是用手都可以拿起，已经不是背在我的肩膀上了。 谢谢你爱我。

有志者事竟成是我在小学时演讲的题目。 2021年的某一天，我突然想起这六个字。 我忘了演讲的时候我有没有拿奖， 我忘了那时候到底怕不怕，紧张或者镇定， 但是我非常记得那时候有一个字，我不会读，就是 --- 凭。我发现，原来在写这篇分享稿以前，我还是不懂到底是念 PIN 或 PING? 现在，我很有信心的告诉你们，是念 PING (二声）。总算了了我的一个小心愿，三十年后，我搞懂了。。。有心不怕迟用的上了。 2022 年的一月十六日，我终于飞了人生第一次的滑翔伞。我竟然也等了十年！ 在这个时候，我停了下来，想想我到底还有什么事是想做但还没有做？还要等到什么时候？ 你是不是也在想？如果想到了，不妨在手机上做个记录。

A famous quotes by — George MacDonald “To give truth to him who loves it not is but to give him more plentiful material for misinterpretation.” Does truth matters?

I thought after so long, nobody will read what I write here. But I found out still some of you would read, and Im surprised. And thank you for your time. I wonder who are you? What is your name? Do I know you? Are you my friend? Where are you from? How have you been doing since the Covid-19 pandemic hits? Why you decide to read what I wrote? I hope all are well with you. =)

Are You not my Heavenly Father whom always watching over me? Did You not send Jesus to die on the cross for me? Will You continue to love me for who I am? You are my Heavenly Father Who knew my name.

Its been a while...I read some contents here and found, I was kinda transparent. 🤣 I had a post many years back about A-Z of my life, a 2.0 sounds legit. A - Alex, my hubby’s name; B - Bullshit, the first word that came to me! Lol. Hmm...shit happens...; C - Christian, constantly feeling Im a fake one; D - Die to self, its a reminder; E - Empathy, I would want to have more of this; F - F.I.R.E., being introduced to this movement recently; G - God, without God, I am nothing; H - Hope; I - Immediately, my memory doesnt function like 10 years ago, I need to do thing immediately most of the time when ai thought of it or I must jot it down! J - Jesus is my Lord, not Saviour only. K - Kiln, play with pottery recently... L - Lactose Intolerance M - Minimalism, trying to learn more about it N - Learning to say No to certain things mean you can focus on the Yes! O - Organ donor P - Pray like never before!! Q - Quiet, learning to keep quiet is part of wisdom R - Relationship...

How could I possibly pour out everything in my heart, my mind...? Dad, I know that You know me even before I was born, You formed my inward parts; You knitted me together in my mother's womb(Psalm 139:13), I am precious in Your eyes and You love me(Isaiah 43:4a).... Upon Your words, I can build my trust! I want to trust You for my future family, though I knew the fact that Alex and I are both alpha thalassemia minor...25% of chances to get an alpha thalassemia major child...doctor said nothing is guarantee...we could only prepare ourselves for what is to come if we decided to have our own child. How could I possibly ready and prepare enough to face what is to come without You?

feel like wanting to create a new blog after i read an article...the blog title would be "connect the dots"... I tried to look for an address for the new blog...its difficult to think of an address...wanting to be special enough, at the same time want it to be very simple. i wanted to put "dots.blogspot.com", but it says can not be found... here I am writing this blog...after I stopped few years back...and the new post title as seen. read through my previous posts...many thoughts... then i found out the blog started in year 2006. i have the most blog post in the year of 2009. look at how i describe myself, and i thought - is it still the same? have I change? what are the changes? at this hour...i felt God is closer to me...

I have decided, at this time, to cease my blog. This symbolizes a new chapter in my life. Just in case u wanna know more about me, go to my facebook. ^^ Best regards, Tracy Wong 19/11/2024; 11:34am revisited my blog. I am still here.  I am grateful that I am still here, I did not end my life. Thank You Jesus.

proud to be Malaysian. Marched for the next generation and generations to come.

感恩身边有一班很棒的伙伴! ^^ 今早听这首歌的时候很感动,流泪了...

 

a group of brothers and sisters got baptist this afternoon. It was a joyous moment to be the witness of them willingly gave their lives to God. as pastor prayed for one of the sister, she mentioned about to be a follower of Christ. and this word 'follower' got me into thinking...I dont want to be witness only, but i want to be a true follower & disciple of Christ Jesus. this is a timely reminder...Im not on earth to waste my time seeing what people do, but Im involve in the kingdom of God! To spread the gospel and to expand His kingdom. Lord, please forgive me for wasting so much time to just sit down & think. For the word of God says faith without action is death! God, i need Your strength & wisdom. And I'm willing to be Your follower. Amen.

Met a group of young & passionate generation Y! I will remember the military story, Sean & all the best to you, Karen! Thanks Alvin & Gibbs for the gathering! ^^

The splendor of the King, clothed in majesty Let all the earth rejoice All the earth rejoice He wraps himself in Light, and darkness tries to hide And trembles at His voice Trembles at His voice How great is our God, sing with me How great is our God, and all will see How great, how great is our God Age to age He stands And time is in His hands Beginning and the end Beginning and the end The Godhead Three in One Father Spirit Son The Lion and the Lamb The Lion and the Lamb How great is our God, sing with me How great is our God, and all will see How great, how great is our God Name above all names Worthy of all praise My heart will sing How great is our God Name above all names Worthy of all praise My heart will sing How great is our God How great is our God, sing with me How great is our God, and all will see How great, how great is our God

Imagined myself singing this song, with a guitar on my hands, on the stage of my very own bar & restaurant named Yello...will you come & listen to me? ^^

I cant remember when was the last time i walked by the beach... thanks M.Y. for accompanying me! ^^ thank God for friends who share & care. May God bless u M.Y.